Longing

A longing to be
A longing not to be
A longing that's getting intense
A longing that's making me lose my sense
A longing thats making me aware
A longing that was never there
A longing whose roots are going deep
A longing that i behold and above all i keep
Hurting me, struggling me, a feeling
that the longing is giving
Difficult to express what its doing
Making me restless yet aware i am
Making me frustrate yet calm i am
A longing that needs to be
To unwind the truths
To dissolve the me
A longing hope not to be long
A longing hope not to be long